Day 17. On Being Present

[et_pb_section bb_built=”1″ admin_label=”section”][et_pb_row admin_label=”Row”][et_pb_column type=”2_3″][et_pb_text admin_label=”Text” background_layout=”light” text_orientation=”left” use_border_color=”off” border_color=”#ffffff” border_style=”solid”]

“In a Flash” 4×4, oil on canvas [creativ_button url=”https://denisehopkinsfineart.com/product/in-a-flash-4×4-oil-on-canvas/” icon=”” label=”More Info” colour=”red” colour_custom=”” size=”medium” edge=”straight” target=”_self”]

Yesterday morning I was staring out my kitchen window watching cardinals chase each other from the feeder as a woodpecker settled in and had a leisurely breakfast.

This morning I was determined to paint early. It was still dark out, my son still asleep. With the cardinals still on my mind and in the quiet of rhythmic rain and subtle thunder, I created today’s painting, an image I’ve been painting and repainting on canvas but also in my mind repeatedly.

If I started this month (or even this morning) with patience as a mantra, I have truly lost my way.  After the quiet of focused painting, I returned to my million-miles-a-minutes self who hurried my son through breakfast, teeth-brushing, and shoe tying. I was eager to get him to school because today’s to-do list was growing so rapidly, I was worried it would overtake me.

The rain prevented us from our usual walk, and the unfamiliar car line seemed ordinary on our short drive. But then, right before the destination, seat belt already off in preparation for the teacher to open the car door for him, it happened. I thought the crossing guard wanted me to move forward when really he didn’t. And even at two miles an hour, a slammed break can send a small child flying. Especially when you’re so busy thinking of your to-do list that you don’t realize he is standing up. 

He is okay. No bruises, no marks. Only the cracked buttons on my car’s radio show that there was an impact at all.

But I’m not okay.  The “what ifs” are running rampant, terrorizing me. SLOW DOWN. I hear that, too, every moment “what if” takes a pause. It’s not just the brushstrokes that are calling to be less hurried. It’s the eating of eggs, the brushing of little teeth, the careful watching of the crossing guard. 

“Do not worry” says my favorite scripture which offers birds as the example. I am not so much like the birds of the air, but I am watching them, and maybe this time really seeing them– reminders to slow down, to pay attention to the present moment instead of the one that has yet, and may never, come. 

[/et_pb_text][/et_pb_column][et_pb_column type=”1_3″][et_pb_sidebar admin_label=”Sidebar” orientation=”left” area=”sidebar-1″ background_layout=”light” remove_border=”off” /][/et_pb_column][/et_pb_row][/et_pb_section]

Picture of Denise Hopkins

Denise Hopkins

August 17, 2018

Share Post

Leave a Reply

blog

Related Blog Posts

Day 31. If you want to go far…

  “If You Want to go Far” 24×30 inches, oil on canvas I started this month with a bike, and...

View Post
Day 30. Reteach a thing its loveliness.

“The Bud Stands for All Things” 24×24 inches, oil on paper I discovered this poem last week by Galway Kinnell...

View Post
Day 29. Intuition

“Follow Your Intuition” 9×12 inches, oil on paper My art studio is a 300 square foot storage room underneath our...

View Post

Privacy Policy

This following document sets forth the Privacy Policy for this website. We are bound by the Privacy Act 1988 (Crh), which sets out a number of principles concerning the privacy of individuals using this website.

Collection of your personal information

We collect Non-Personally Identifiable Information from visitors to this Website. Non-Personally Identifiable Information is information that cannot by itself be used to identify a particular person or entity, and may include your IP host address, pages viewed, browser type, Internet browsing and usage habits, advertisements that you click on, Internet Service Provider, domain name, the time/date of your visit to this Website, the referring URL and your computer’s operating system.

Free offers & opt-ins

Participation in providing your email address in return for an offer from this site is completely voluntary and the user therefore has a choice whether or not to disclose your information. You may unsubscribe at any time so that you will not receive future emails.

Sharing of your personal information

Your personal information that we collect as a result of you purchasing our products & services, will NOT be shared with any third party, nor will it be used for unsolicited email marketing or spam. We may send you occasional marketing material in relation to our design services. What Information Do We Collect? If you choose to correspond with us through email, we may retain the content of your email messages together with your email address and our responses.