I struggle with commissions. It’s just a fact. That’s why I take them on only sparingly. But this one reminded me of me and my sister and of my nieces, and I loved the landscape aspect to it. The first go at it was all wrong and I’m not sure I could articulate why. I tried to “fix” it, but in the end it was easier to just start from scratch. I’m so glad I did.
The collector really helped me by giving honest, helpful feedback. It reminds me a lot of a blog post I wrote back in 2014 about one of my very first commissioned pieces that took quite a few versions before it worked out.
There will always be time for visions and revisions. I’m just glad that creating something all wrong can lead to something beautiful, can be a part of that process.
Repeat after me: “Failure is my friend”– that’s what my son’s sensei used to say in karate class. I have taken that to heart and repeat it to myself often. It is a great comfort to be able to cozy up to failure rather than treating it like some enemy to be defeated. Because it can’t be. Not ever. Giving up the fight can lead to some pretty wonderful magic. And I’m all about magic.